I get it. I'm hungry and it sucks.
Today I was light headed and woozy. It might be all in my head but right now as I sit here my stomach is rumbling. Plus I'm cranky, as you might guess from the whining that is about to commence.
I suppose if this were my life I might adjust t0 be able to function on this diet once I got used to it. But I think people don't. They go hungry. If they have kids they put more food their way so the kids can make it through school with a hope of being able to learn.
I don't know what more I'm going to do to be more committed to this problem - which in the current economy is certainly worsening. But I will do more.
Today's menu was the same as yesterday's except I ate a larger apple that I bought as part of my week's allotment $0.69. I also added a protein shake (free with coupon) and a dried fruit fiber bar. And I'm still hungry. I might be staying competitive on calories with what I usually eat but what I usually eat is denser and contains fiber and nutrients that I'm just not getting. Bread for example - the loaf I chose because it was the cheapest is light and fluffy. I hear kids like that kind but I was a weird kid. I've always preferred dense, chewy stuff. What I normally eat these days is the flourless, sprouted no sodium stuff. And I'm certain that the huge hit of sodium I'm taking from the ramen isn't helping matters.
Really it's another job. To do the planning, to map out how to have the healthiest diet possible in a world where cheap often equals crappy. I admire those who do it and make it look easy. My grandmothers did it and I feel like a bit of a failure that I didn't learn their lessons better.
Also, I used up most of my remaining $0.60 for the week on an onion (to use in my rice and beans dish).
And, last but not least, I will be consciously cheating tomorrow. I'll explain in my post then.