Sigh. This lack of focus thing is showing. I hit publish on the previous post before mentioning today, day 4.
My dog is sick and she's not eating well. Also she's got problems with incontinence that get me up several times throughout the night. It's sad and stressful and leaving me very tired. Add a spammer hijacking my email and me waking up to 7,500 returned delivery notices. The hunger thing - not really helping.
I burned the rice I was making to have rice and beans. I think it was a matter of the ratios not translating well to the small quantity I attempted to cook. At any rate, once that happened I didn't have the energy or the will to then chop up an onion (and/or deal with cooking the beans) which I feared 0n this not great day would unleash a flood of tears when the onion would inevitably make me tear up.
I can't even bring myself to eat at this point. I'll go to bed tonight hungry, frustrated and overwhelmed by far less than what many struggle with.
I read this reminder to count my blessings today in one of the email forwards my dad sends me:
"If you have food in your refrigerator, clothes to wear, a roof on your head and a place to sleep, you are richer than 75% of people on Earth."
True and a valuable perspective. And I also realized today that I can't stress eat which is a good thing, I guess. But first-world as my problems might be, it still ain't easy to have a frustrating, stress-filled day and have to deal with parsing out your meager food supply, measuring and cooking everything and be hungry on top of it all.